Early last night, I once again did use music in PSI, and saw ways
others might. But just as new mathematics builds on foundations which
are essential which not everyone knows about, I must start with
background.
Just as an example -- in 2009, I found myself sitting next to Klaus Nobel,
in a fancy meal at a high ranking restaurant in DC. Klaus spoke about
how he was the real force behind the "Nobel prize in Economics" which,
he said, is not officially a real Novel Prize. but his real interest
was on what I call PSI, the development and use of psychic or spiritual capabilities.
I assured him that I was just as deep into that as he was, and that I
have been working in my own way. He arched his eyebrow and was clearly
skeptical I could really mean that. "IF so, and if your interest is
real, what music do you use?" It is clear HE viewed that connection
as fundamental. It reminded me of people who wrote about groups in
Switzerland whoview mathematics, music and mysticism as entangled
fields, which only reach full expression when working together. Now it
reminds me of jung's Red Book, which discusses the importance of
multiple modalities, not ONLY words.
For me, I did not even BELIEVE in PSI until spring 1967. I forcibly
rejected the possibility of PSI, for reasons I have repeated often
enough. But I did not reject music.
In one year of my life, when I was twelve, I lived with my mother,
brother, sister and a beagle in a row house on Graver's Lane, in the
Chetsnut Hill part of Philadelphia. In the same year, I commuted by
train to the University of Pennsylvania, where I took the junior
advanced calculus course under Professor Schub. That same year, I
scraped up $100 to buy a used upright piano, which I used for the
usual kinds of piano lessons. I felt some affection for Mr.Conkey, the
music teacher in my school, who made sure we knew the standard music
theory and heard lots of classical music. In his class, and on the
radio, I heard a good amount of classical music, and echoed the
disrespect we had for popular music of the time. It certainly was an
activity consistent with the spirit of mathematics. I even "composed"
a few things in little blue music score books; Mr. Conkey nodded his
head in vacant approval, with a few suggestions, but no sign of
greatness or such.
For two years, 1962-1964, I attended a boarding school, the
Lawrenceville School, which radically changed my understanding of
music, in a way which set the stage for PSI. I did not listen to
classical music much even on the radio there, but I often went to
their music building, which had great pianos, and where I could even
start improvising. As I put more of my real energy and feelings into it,
it seemed to go somewhere, and I even remember a music teacher walking in
and showing some real interest.
More important, in the second year, I met "the other smartest kid in
the class," a new kid from New York.
Actually, late in the first year, I already went through a radical
change in viewpoint. As I was taking Alonzo Church's graduate course
in Princeton on mathematical logic, I gradually realised that pure
deductive logic, no matter how perfect, simply doesn't provide enough
basis to answer the basic questions of ethics and purpose which I had
been interested in since I was 12. That was when I said: "Stop asking
what you SHOULD do; ask what you WOULD do if you were wise. You need to
better understand the "YOU" (the I)," which implies what I now call
first order sanity, which calls for full openness to first person
inputs. But did I realize it yet that year??
In my second year, that kid from New York loved to listen to Mahler,
which I even listened to once in our school library. Yes, I had
listened to a lot of music, but he said I was not REALLY listening. I
needed to learn how to really feel the music inside me as I was
listening. I needed to learn how to listen to and feel the whole
thing. That turned out to be really important.
In my three years as an undergraduate at Harvard, 1964 to 1967, I did
not believe in PSI at all until spring 1967.
But I did believe in classical music, and even in its value in
strengthening my first order sanity, my full awareness of what was
around me. (You might call it a kind of "mindfulness.") My parents
bought me a stereo as I started school, and I bought a few albums of
classical music, and listened hard for my whole time as undergraduate.
Stravinsky, Prokoviev, Shostakovich, Bartok, Faure, maybe Bolero, a
few others. I would rest back in a comfortable leather easy chair, and
let the music totally roll over me, and fill me. And at times I used that
as a prop as I prepared to concentrate hard on issues involving neural
networks, economics, political systems, and other such things.
In my second year, I even took a course from DeVore on primate
behavior (to help me understand how brains work),
where I saw the classic video by vanderPost (whose name I did not
notice at the time) on the "Bushman dance," which I immediately
understood as a key to where humans languages really come from. Music
and dance BEFORE words, the foundation on which words are built.
And so, I believe that these efforts were a crucial part of what
CAUSED me to have the unsought-for dramatic PSI experience I have
often written about, in the spring of 1967, which forced me to
reconsider PSI quite seriously.
I describe that already in the published, open papers I link to at
www.werbos.com/religions.htm, and in what they cite for more detail.
Serious interest in US-China relations and interest in observing how
things work in my brain were other crucial elements.
In my last year there, 1966-1967, I also had access to a great piano in
my house at Harvard, where I went back to improvising, and even
discussion with serious musicians, whose art does have some resonance
with PSI.
In 1967-1968, at LSE, my main access to music was hearing OTHER
people's music, as in restaurants or the street, but then I did listen
to popular music, and realize it is a window into minds around me.
From 1967 to 1972 I had a series of experiences, mostly due to my
experimentation, which moved me from <1% belief in PSI to >99%. In much
later years, I did open myself to a 10% possibility that ALL psi
experiences might be caused by a kind of Jungian synchronicity, caused
by our cosmos implementing optimization equations which look a lot
like an intelligent system in itself; however, as I looked more
closely (in recent years, again), that dropped back down a lot.
And so, in a post on "Higher states of Consciousnss", I noted how I
put huge energy into the main practice I followed from 1972 to
Christmas 1978. (I also posted a "poltergeist" story from that time
describing the practice.) As I went to bed, I would listen to New Age
music on radio or stereo or eight track tape, as part of mobilizing a
kind of "qi" and trying various things. But when I went to work for
US government at Christmas 1978, I simply could not afford to do that
until I retired in 2015. In that time, I mostly dropped out of
LEARNING AND EXERCISING Psi, except for the three limited phenomena I
described in my post on higher consciousness. (Astral and assumption
dreams, and "cosmic consciousness" as I woke in the morning.) Of
course, I still OBSERVED popular music, even top 40, as a kind of
source of data on what people are thinking.
Only slowly have I begun to use music at times in that old way, step
by step. In 2020, my wife hung a big flat TV in our bedroom, which I
can reach by chromecast from a phone or tablet computer in bed. I
found just two groups, Tangerine Dream and Renaissance, which I had
used in 1972-1979 which I can get deeply, spiritually into now at
night, helping me elevate my soul. Tangerine Dream came first, for
several reasons; in a way, it connects to the "yang" side of my life,
the sky-connected heavily mathematical side. I previously posted how I
could use it to enhance connection with our noosphere, but in truth
the sky is even bigger than that.
Last night, Renaissance. In truth, I was reminded somehow of a clear
song they sang in the early period, when I ALMOST married a woman from
Chile. It was SO close that I tend to believe I DID marry her, in
another strand of our multiverse. There was a book by Silverberg which
described our relation in such detail, and its future, enough to make
me worry, especially after a high-PSI person I knew well contacted me
and gave me wranings which just happened to fit the book (which he had
not read). There was a song by Renaissance back then which fit that
strand (in a detailed, earthy, concrete veridical way, the kind of
detail any sane PSI experimenter would insist on). And so, as I wonder
agaon what strands of the multiverse we may connect with,,, I decided
yesterday was overdue to locate their work.
So I did. it was not so easy for me, using a phone for chromecast. On
the phone, I found only two pieces, Scheherazade and Ashes are
Burning. I got deep into a better recording of Scheherazade earlier
this year, and it was serious and engaging enough, but I only needed
to listen once. (More and more, I just replay by memory in my head.) I
still value Scheherazade, which resonates IN PART with my relation
with my wife and with the multiverse in general. (Last night,I had a
strong impression that Kamala Harris should pay attention to a good
recording, which resonates with the Vishnu/Lakshmi/Kamala story she
must know about.) But I wanted to hear something more substantive
about multiverse, and I knew from the 1970's that this specific group
has some real PSI input in what they did.
Ashes are Burning was serious, and I really wonder what THAT is
saying. One response: in part, those are TRUMP'S ashes in play right
now. It echoes that little phrase I heard during CC: "Manifest harder
your core, but cleanse and purify your shadows and reflections." Could
it be that OUR version of Donald Trump is being cleansed, or is this
just a stage in the growth of the best Dondald Trump there is, even as
that OTHER Trump who really took office for a second term is dissolved
away in the multiverse, just as quantum computers throw out sequences
which don't make it to the final show? Was there even some kind of
backwards flow of information in this album? (It took other data
points to make me consider this. Of course, I do not know, but I do
wonder.)
But I wondered about that girl from Chile. I hope the multiverse did
not erase THAT album which I remember owning and listening to in the
1970s! I gave up on my phone, but a few hours later, rolled over in
bed, connected my little samsung tab to our wifi, and used it to find
more. I found Prologue, You can Understand, and one other by the same
group. No Chilean girl, but much more interesting and PSI-related
material. "You can understand" evoked the strongest memory and will and
connection. And there was more. All on my yin side, perhaps, but not a
restricted muddy kind of yin.
And later, in CC, I found most of this written into my brain (bit by
bit, a kind of joint venture), along with at least four other homework
assignments. And some deeper understanding of what I had heard.